I know I've been gone for so long (almost three months), but hopefully you all will forgive my absense. I never did lose my internet connection, but as you know...morning sickness hit. I've been extremely sick with this little one and dropped down to 95 pounds. I had an extreme case of morning sickness called Hyperemisis Gravidarum. I've been on an anti-neasea medicine along with Benedryl which, surprisingly, has an anti-neasea property to it. Needless to say...both make you sleepy and combined...comotose lol. I've seen the inside of my toilet bowl waaaaay too much, gagged even just walking into my kitchen, and had an aversion to all things good (like water) for far too long.
I seem to finally be coming out the other side FINALLY and only just shy of being halfway through this pregnancy. I'm happy to say, I'm up to 110 pounds, filling out (can we say need new bras...YES!!!), and beginning to take less and less of the medicine which means I may be out of a fog soon. YIPPEE!
I've missed blogging and writing like crazy and it feels great to know I can ease back into it and get moving forward again. I'm not sure if I will be able to hit my goal of finishing the rough draft of Midnight Ride by Christmas, but here's to hoping.
What have I learned from all of this? To trust and lean on my Heavenly Father. I quit praying for him to stop the morning sickness, but instead I prayed that he would help me through it and to help me find strength at my lowest point and I've found out who has a strong stomach in my house. hehehehe My kids have been an amazing help. They've also been wonderful with getting my ice water, cold rag and even pulling my hair out of the way while I lost everything I put in.
I also have learned to have faith that he will work everything out for the good because I know he loves me. I'm having faith that this baby will be just fine even with the weight loss and being so sick, etc. When I feel myself begin to worry or stress, I stop and turn it over to God and have faith that things will work out. God has been meeting me there each time and building that faith stronger for me.
On that note, I have a name picked out for if this is a girl (which I hope it is since I've been calling it a girl for a while now): Amber Faith Elizabeth Silva. This name has a very special place in my heart. Amber is the name I picked out last time, but I knew it was a boy so I never chose a middle name. Faith because this is what God and I are working on building and I'm having faith that this baby will be healthy and a blessing to our family. Elizabeth was the name my mom-in-love would have named her daughter had she had one and she asked us to consider it. It was never a name I really thought about using, but as soon as my hubby told me what his mom had said, it clicked for me. I made sure it was something I really wanted and it is...she would never have pressured us to use it, but I'm happy to bless her this way and I love the whole name together. It's beautiful and who wouldn't want a name meaning faithful and consecrated to God?
What if it's a boy? Well...good question lol because I haven't the slightest idea what we would name him. I honestly think it's a girl and my hubby thinks it's a boy (he wants our Brady Bunch since we have three girls and two boys so far, but I told him he can't have that unless I get an Alice to go with it hehehehe). I did catch him calling the baby a she the other day though. I think I'm coaxing him over to the girl side. Hopefully when we have an ultrasound, the baby is positioned just right for a definite answer.
Well, I'm still mighty tired and this has gotten long. I'll end it for now, but will try and update again soon. Other cool things happened this summer even though I feel like I missed my whole summer this year.
Oh and at the top of the page, right above the tag board, is a place you can enter your email addy and you will get an email letting you know I updated. This might come in handy while I'm pregnant and when it comes time for the baby to arrive.
Ummm...disclaimer...I'm not responsible for any misspelling or mistyping while drugged.