Yesterday, June 1st, was supposed to be the deadline for the New Me goal I had set towards the beginning of the year. I wanted my hair to be a little longer and perhaps blonde (natural) again. I wanted to be healthy and tough with strong muscles and great flexability. I wanted to be on fire for God and living passionately for him. I wanted my home organized and running smoothly more often than not. I wanted to be pursuing my writing career with enthusiasm. I wanted to be on my way to learning how to play my guitar. I wanted to be a better photographer. There's so much I wanted to have happened in my life by yesterday.
And that's the story of my life. I want everything yesterday. And I want the future as soon as possible. But I'm not content with the now. I live with the regrets of days past and long for the days to come and I never really live and love the todays. I focus solely on the product. I'm a lousy product and I want to be a better one immediately.
But what does God focus on? Is it the final product? No, he focuses on the process. He walks with us as we tread the narrow path to salvation. And then he walks with us along the narrow path to eternity with him. He's focused on the journey. How we handle the circumstances that rise against us. How we learn contentment where we are at knowing and trusting that he will lead us further along the process. How our faith makes us strong in him. How bold we become as we obey him and carry out his plan.
I have a dog, Davey, who hates to be left behind when I head out the door. It doesn't matter if we walk or ride in the Suburban as long as he's invited. The ride together means more to him than the actual arrival.
I'm not saying it doesn't matter where we go. I'm saying, God wants to be with you as you travel. He wants you to talk to him, share your struggles, seek his wisdom and worship him as you head towards the end of the journey (where a new beginning is waiting).
As I ponder my failed deadline, I feel like I have a choice. I can continue on striving and fighting my way to the product I hold so dear or I can let go of the end product and focus on the process. I can get caught up in discontentment and frustration or I can grab the Lord's hand and enjoy the journey not worrying about where he's leading, but instead trusting that we will have an awesome adventure on the way.
There are changes I need to make, but they will take time. I'd like to grow my hair out and go back to my naturally blonde self for a while, I'd like to get healthy, tough and build strong muscles and a flexable body, I want to be on fire for God and live passionately for him, I want my home organized and running smoothly more often than not, I want to pursue my writing career with enthusiasm, I want to learn how to play my guitar, and I want to be a better photographer. There is a lot I want to do in my lifetime, but with God's help, I'll live in today enjoying his companionship and the path he leads me on.
I have a New New Me deadline - this one is to remind me that if I follow God's leading, live in each today, and cherish where I am now - then by the deadline, I'll have learned a lot through the process of reaching it.
Today, I'll focus on - today.
19 More Meandering Minds.