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Thursday, June 2nd 2005

9:56 PM

Yesterday...

Yesterday, June 1st, was supposed to be the deadline for the New Me goal I had set towards the beginning of the year.  I wanted my hair to be a little longer and perhaps blonde (natural) again.  I wanted to be healthy and tough with strong muscles and great flexability.  I wanted to be on fire for God and living passionately for him.  I wanted my home organized and running smoothly more often than not.  I wanted to be pursuing my writing career with enthusiasm.  I wanted to be on my way to learning how to play my guitar.  I wanted to be a better photographer.  There's so much I wanted to have happened in my life by yesterday.

And that's the story of my life.  I want everything yesterday.  And I want the future as soon as possible.  But I'm not content with the now.  I live with the regrets of days past and long for the days to come and I never really live and love the todays.  I focus solely on the product.  I'm a lousy product and I want to be a better one immediately.

But what does God focus on?  Is it the final product?  No, he focuses on the process.  He walks with us as we tread the narrow path to salvation.  And then he walks with us along the narrow path to eternity with him.  He's focused on the journey.  How we handle the circumstances that rise against us.  How we learn contentment where we are at knowing and trusting that he will lead us further along the process.  How our faith makes us strong in him.  How bold we become as we obey him and carry out his plan.

I have a dog, Davey, who hates to be left behind when I head out the door.  It doesn't matter if we walk or ride in the Suburban as long as he's invited.  The ride together means more to him than the actual arrival. 

I'm not saying it doesn't matter where we go. I'm saying, God wants to be with you as you travel.  He wants you to talk to him, share your struggles, seek his wisdom and worship him as you head towards the end of the journey (where a new beginning is waiting). 

As I ponder my failed deadline, I feel like I have a choice.  I can continue on striving and fighting my way to the product I hold so dear or I can let go of the end product and focus on the process.  I can get caught up in discontentment and frustration or I can grab the Lord's hand and enjoy the journey not worrying about where he's leading, but instead trusting that we will have an awesome adventure on the way. 

There are changes I need to make, but they will take time.  I'd like to grow my hair out and go back to my naturally blonde self for a while, I'd like to get healthy, tough and build strong muscles and a flexable body, I want to be on fire for God and live passionately for him, I want my home organized and running smoothly more often than not,  I want to pursue my writing career with enthusiasm,  I want to  learn how to play my guitar, and  I want to be a better photographer.  There is a lot I want to do in my lifetime, but with God's help, I'll live in today enjoying his companionship and the path he leads me on.

I have a New New Me deadline - this one is to remind me that if I follow God's leading, live in each today, and cherish where I am now - then by the deadline, I'll have learned a lot through the process of reaching it.

Today, I'll focus on -  today.
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Wednesday, June 8th 2005 @ 9:55 PM

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Wednesday, June 8th 2005 @ 9:53 PM

Posted by Audra Silva:

That is true, Sherry. COntinually adjusting the sails and making sure they keep us aiming at God is the key. I don't mind if you want to send this post to your hubby. :) I hope he enjoys it. :)

Amen, Bonnie. That contentment is so important. :)
Tuesday, June 7th 2005 @ 3:45 PM

Posted by Bonnie:

Audra, I SO enjoy your writing. This thought jumped out at me this morning: "How we learn contentment where we are at ...". That is the bottom line, to accept what God brings our way and to find contentment BECAUSE, not "in spite of".

Thank you for the reminder. I don't think any of us can hear that enough. Bless you! Bonnie
:)
Tuesday, June 7th 2005 @ 10:40 AM

Posted by Sherry Upson:

What a wonderful post! I have often thought about my failed goals, but I am getting SO much better at enjoying the moment. I was doing pretty good at enjoying the "now" when my little man came along (almost six years ago). When we found out that Audrey was not meant to be with us long, I learned much more quickly.

Sometimes I think I am living too much in the now and the pendulum swings back the other way and I don't enjoy my son. I think we have to constantly adjust our sails to keep on the right heading. If we are as in tune as you seem to be right now, the corrections to the sails are small and slight. If we let "life" take over and don't correct often enough, we veer too far off course and it takes a while to get back to the correct heading.

The point is to just keep adjusting those sails, whether it be small adjustments or massive course corrections. The point is to get back on the right heading. The point is to treasure the past, long for the future, and enjoy the present.

You are doing a great job




Sherry

PS: I would like to copy your post and send it to my husband in Baghdad... I think he would really like it.
Tuesday, June 7th 2005 @ 7:33 AM

Posted by Audra Silva:

A good reminder, Gina. :)
Sunday, June 5th 2005 @ 3:27 PM

Posted by Gina:

Beth Moore teaches that God can change your DAY. Give Him each day. One day at a time. Tomorrow is not promised to us. Do what you can for Him, and allow Him to work in you-- TODAY.
Saturday, June 4th 2005 @ 3:49 PM

Posted by Audra Silva:

Thanks ladies. :) Yes, it sure can Claire. I'm trying to learn though.
Saturday, June 4th 2005 @ 6:11 AM

Posted by Claire Andrews:

It can be hard to stop and savour the moment.
Friday, June 3rd 2005 @ 10:34 PM

Posted by Bev:

I'm so proud of you.
Friday, June 3rd 2005 @ 6:36 PM

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Friday, June 3rd 2005 @ 10:31 AM

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