Procrastination...the very word sends flashes of guilt through the person who has this habit down to an artform. As I said in my May 1st post, procrastination is something that has become such an ingrain habit, I do it without even realizing half the time. I've been analyzing why I procrastinate and here are the reasons I came up with:
1. Because I feel like I should be doing something else
2. I'm feeling swamped and overwhelmed because I've let so much get out of hand that I've got stuff everywhere needing my attention and so I shut down...kinda like burying my head in the sand...only I use the computer (email, chat, surfing).
3. I'm feeling tired and lacking energy and again thinking about all that needs doing seems even more exhausting.
4. Being lazy
5. The whole fearing failure/success/change/unknown thing.
Another thing I've come to realize is that because I've procrastinated on everything in my life, I've gotten to a point now where I can't even work on the things I enjoy doing because the guilt of not doing it for so long ways heavily on me.
I also tend to defeat myself because I want to accomplish or catch up on everything NOW! I don't want to do it one small step at a time...I'm afraid I'll never get caught up because it will take forever working that slow. The reality is...at least I'd be moving forward.
I need/want to become an action-oriented woman of momentum. That's my phrase to keep in mind as I try and turn this situation around. I've given myself one task to accomplish today...only one and the rest of what I get down will just be a bonus. I can't tell you how many things are screaming for attention right now, but I will do this one thing today: I need to finish clipping my standard poodle. I'm only focusing on his head and body. The paws are not included right now.
I've also bought myself a five subject notebook in which I'll work through my procrastination habit and begin replacing that with good habits. I've got some ideas of what to try and I'll be sharing my progress as I go.
A side note: out of desperation, I called my sister and asked her to come help me for a week. I want her to help me purge my home, organize it better and help me set up systems plus hold me accountable after she leaves. I even told her she has free range in directing my home, myself and my children (hubby is not included lol..he directs himself). Am I crazy? YES! hehe I think she may agree simply because she can boss her older sis around.
One thing I admire about my sister and my mother is how they both keep on top of the different things in their lives. I want to learn how they do that.
Stay tuned to see how things progress around here as I take procrastination on and overcome this beast.